Grief because this world is a fucked up place

Two weeks ago I had to struggle with acknowledging the state of the world in which I live. This was a significant trigger and I went directly into an emotional burnout.  I know that therapy helps but I think I signed up for something I was unaware of. My impression was that speaking about the … Continue reading Grief because this world is a fucked up place

Losing weight, fashion, and mental health

I find it funny how this blog started. At first, I wanted to write about fashion, then about weight loss and we got to mental health. I think overall, it makes sense. Sometimes we think that if you dress 'hip' or look perfect, you will finally be happy. I also find it funny that I … Continue reading Losing weight, fashion, and mental health

Emotional numbness

I want to start this article by giving a link with more details as I am not specialized in mental health. https://www.healthline.com/health/feeling-numb#treatment I wrote an article about how sometimes I feel empty and it is not a good emptiness, it is like black clay that swallows you. I got so obsessed with this feeling that … Continue reading Emotional numbness

Feeling like one of the Lost boys

A big emptiness in my heart, emotionally numb, lost in a big world. The only anchor is a voice in my headphones. The sad part is that I always felt this way. This is my baseline emotion, no happiness, no gratefulness, just a big hole of nothing. This nothing seems like black clay or like … Continue reading Feeling like one of the Lost boys

Are your ’30s’ the moment when you say ‘F**k that’ and start putting yourself first?

I am speaking with people around me and apparently, the 30s are way better than the 20s. I have to admit I am getting less and less interested in opinions and what other people say. It is not clear if this is the same for people with children, I do not know so many in … Continue reading Are your ’30s’ the moment when you say ‘F**k that’ and start putting yourself first?

Giving up printed T-shirts and gifts because I am done

I do not care anymore. I used to believe it is nice to show my personality with the help of printed T-shirts but I think it is done. Last week I went to look for printed T-shirts but I decided to make a major change in my look. I do not have to show people … Continue reading Giving up printed T-shirts and gifts because I am done

The High 5 Habit: Take Control of Your Life with One Simple Habit Book by Mel Robbins

I wanted to write this blog post last month but I was not in the mood. This is a wonderful book, I enjoyed listening to it and I learned a lot. I am a huge fan of Mel, I listen to all of her books so I felt that this book was a natural evolution.  … Continue reading The High 5 Habit: Take Control of Your Life with One Simple Habit Book by Mel Robbins

Can you look at yourself long enough to make a self-portrait?

Today I realized that you will be able to draw your portrait when you are well enough to look at yourself. I always wanted to start making self-portraits but I never knew why I wasn't finding time to start. Now I realized that I was not well enough to look at myself, deep into my … Continue reading Can you look at yourself long enough to make a self-portrait?

The problem with daily writing

I started writing daily almost 3 years ago and I kept doing that until 4 days ago. As I mentioned before, I used to write morning pages as part of my healing journey. I was quite happy with this until my therapist mentioned that it might be a compulsive action, as I was doing this … Continue reading The problem with daily writing

Mental state during these times

It is quite hard to start this article because I have no idea how I can express what I am feeling.  The global situation and the war close to home are having an impact on my mental stability. I tend to have depression episodes after reading the news and I am crying a lot. My … Continue reading Mental state during these times