Emotional numbness

I want to start this article by giving a link with more details as I am not specialized in mental health. https://www.healthline.com/health/feeling-numb#treatment I wrote an article about how sometimes I feel empty and it is not a good emptiness, it is like black clay that swallows you. I got so obsessed with this feeling that … Continue reading Emotional numbness

Feeling like one of the Lost boys

A big emptiness in my heart, emotionally numb, lost in a big world. The only anchor is a voice in my headphones. The sad part is that I always felt this way. This is my baseline emotion, no happiness, no gratefulness, just a big hole of nothing. This nothing seems like black clay or like … Continue reading Feeling like one of the Lost boys

Are your ’30s’ the moment when you say ‘F**k that’ and start putting yourself first?

I am speaking with people around me and apparently, the 30s are way better than the 20s. I have to admit I am getting less and less interested in opinions and what other people say. It is not clear if this is the same for people with children, I do not know so many in … Continue reading Are your ’30s’ the moment when you say ‘F**k that’ and start putting yourself first?

Giving up printed T-shirts and gifts because I am done

I do not care anymore. I used to believe it is nice to show my personality with the help of printed T-shirts but I think it is done. Last week I went to look for printed T-shirts but I decided to make a major change in my look. I do not have to show people … Continue reading Giving up printed T-shirts and gifts because I am done

The High 5 Habit: Take Control of Your Life with One Simple Habit Book by Mel Robbins

I wanted to write this blog post last month but I was not in the mood. This is a wonderful book, I enjoyed listening to it and I learned a lot. I am a huge fan of Mel, I listen to all of her books so I felt that this book was a natural evolution.  … Continue reading The High 5 Habit: Take Control of Your Life with One Simple Habit Book by Mel Robbins

Can you look at yourself long enough to make a self-portrait?

Today I realized that you will be able to draw your portrait when you are well enough to look at yourself. I always wanted to start making self-portraits but I never knew why I wasn't finding time to start. Now I realized that I was not well enough to look at myself, deep into my … Continue reading Can you look at yourself long enough to make a self-portrait?

The problem with daily writing

I started writing daily almost 3 years ago and I kept doing that until 4 days ago. As I mentioned before, I used to write morning pages as part of my healing journey. I was quite happy with this until my therapist mentioned that it might be a compulsive action, as I was doing this … Continue reading The problem with daily writing

Mental state during these times

It is quite hard to start this article because I have no idea how I can express what I am feeling.  The global situation and the war close to home are having an impact on my mental stability. I tend to have depression episodes after reading the news and I am crying a lot. My … Continue reading Mental state during these times

How I use social media as a tool in my develpment

I was making a coffee in the office and I was thinking about what keeps me motivated. I used to be a boring person, I just smoked and bitch about stuff all day. After I stopped smoking, I changed a little, daily. Today I realized that social media was crucial in my growth because I … Continue reading How I use social media as a tool in my develpment

Why we don’t let ourselves say ‘I am the best’?

I heard a girl saying on a podcast that she is crushing it and it almost gave me an anxiety attack. That made me realize I have a problem because I am also good at my job but I felt like I could never say that out loud.  My mind tried to tell me that … Continue reading Why we don’t let ourselves say ‘I am the best’?