I don’t know who needs to hear that but, when you feel guilty for not calling people, remember that the phone works both ways. Sometimes I feel bad because I am not speaking with relatives and people near me, but they did not care either. This applies also to friends and all colleagues with whom … Continue reading I don’t know who needs to hear that but, when you feel guilty for not calling people, remember that the phone works both ways.
A big emptiness in my heart, emotionally numb, lost in a big world. The only anchor is a voice in my headphones. The sad part is that I always felt this way. This is my baseline emotion, no happiness, no gratefulness, just a big hole of nothing. This nothing seems like black clay or like … Continue reading Feeling like one of the Lost boys
Today I realized that you will be able to draw your portrait when you are well enough to look at yourself. I always wanted to start making self-portraits but I never knew why I wasn’t finding time to start. Now I realized that I was not well enough to look at myself, deep into my … Continue reading Can you look at yourself long enough to make a self-portrait?
I started writing daily almost 3 years ago and I kept doing that until 4 days ago. As I mentioned before, I used to write morning pages as part of my healing journey. I was quite happy with this until my therapist mentioned that it might be a compulsive action, as I was doing this … Continue reading The problem with daily writing
It is quite hard to start this article because I have no idea how I can express what I am feeling. The global situation and the war close to home are having an impact on my mental stability. I tend to have depression episodes after reading the news and I am crying a lot. My … Continue reading Mental state during these times
I am really procrastinating when I think about posting something on my blog. I am experiencing something really nice, life is showing me that it is useless to have fixed opinions and this is making writing so hard. I used to have opinions and expectations but now I am just taking one day at a … Continue reading Mental health and age