I don’t know who needs to hear that but, when you feel guilty for not calling people, remember that the phone works both ways. Sometimes I feel bad because I am not speaking with relatives and people near me, but they did not care either. This applies also to friends and all colleagues with whom I lost connections over the years. I am trying to cut some guilt from my life and I realized this is a very big area. I used to feel bad that I am not calling people but they never call, so I am starting to see that this is not my fault. Life happens and we all get busy but some of us are losing sleep over this.
Two days ago, I went to the doctor and we spoke about my depression. It was weird to hear it. My brain stopped this info for 20 hours and it hit me yesterday. I knew I was depressed but it was different to hear it from a doctor, it just hit me differently. I had a small depression episode the past week, and now I am trying to get back to my writing, maybe drawing, I don’t know.
I am starting to meet new people, I am enjoying this right now. I hope tomorrow I will have a nice time with some girls. We will go and have some wine. I am glad I have this blog, I had to get out of my head in order to write and this helps a lot. I am planning to do my yoga, eat nice stuff (I love berries at the moment), and watch Dr.K’s guide for depression.
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